Today my world turned upside down. Chris and I found out that our bun in the oven was actually plural…buns…yes…TWINS!!!! The news was so shocking I literally could not believe it. So here’s the scene at our first OB appointment and ultrasound:
Doctor: OK, let’s have a look at your baby.
Me: Yes please!
Doctor: Caroline, you’re having twins.
Me: haha, that’s funny.
Doctor: Here’s the first one and here’s the second one.
Me: Wait…you’re not joking??
Doctor: No, congratulations!
Doctor: Caroline…are you OK?
Nurse: I can’t see her face, is she happy?
Chris: [laughing hysterically]
My whole body was shaking. My whole future felt like it was flashing before my eyes. Of course we were planning the second baby (our family planning consisted of 2 total)…but you never expect to get that kind of news. We even joked before the appointment; “hopefully we’ll just see one in there.” I mean, I could clearly see on the monitor that there were two babies, but my mind just would not let me believe it. I pretty much laid there stunned for the remainder of the appointment. On reflection, I’m actually a little sad because I barely remember hearing the heartbeats which is the most exciting part…other than finding out there’s two of course.
After the appointment, I called Becky. Here’s how that went:
Me: Hey, so, yeah, I just had my appt.
Becky: How did it go?
Me: Um….good…uuuuhhhh, I have some news.
Becky: ARE YOU HAVING TWINS????
Becky: (I honestly don’t remember what she said, but I do remember she said this): I knew your appt was soon, but I couldn’t remember the exact date. When you called me yesterday and didn’t leave a message, I actually thought that you were calling to tell me you were having twins!
Scary how she was so accurate…
Luckily Chris and I both took the day off work, so we went to Panera and had a nice long lunch where discussed this bombshell just dropped on us. I was still shaking. My basic thoughts circled around how in the world am I going to do this? One baby was hard enough…now two babies at the same time with a 2 year old wild man running around…I will never be super woman. We continued talking for a long time about everything and confirmed that we were indeed both terrified. But we concluded with…we’re having twins…that’s that. A nice gentleman sitting at the table beside us stopped me as we were leaving and says this:
Nice gentleman: I couldn’t help but overhear your conversation, congratulations!!
Me: Thank you, it was definitely quite a shock though.
Nice gentleman: My daughter has a 5 year old and then she had twins, they’re 2 and half now. Trust me, God doesn’t give you more than you can handle.
Me: Thank you.
Thank you kind sir…more than you know.
Still in a state of shock bordering on panic, we called my brother, the only other person who knew about the pregnancy, and told him the news. He was super excited. I couldn’t understand it, but he thought it was fantastic news. I’m so glad he had that kind of reaction because I think it finally got my mind turning in the right direction. I’m a pessimist by nature, so I always think about the bad stuff first. He got me thinking about the good stuff and after that it was just a matter of time before the terror started to turn to excitement. We are having TWINS!!!!